Considering I clear out my social media history often, I want the record of GOD has done through this illness; enter my very abandoned blog. To be updated when I have some more energy. For now, a nice reminder of what this body is overcoming.
Mostly unconscious today but GOD saw fit to allow me to submit some assignments and I think they are OK. Fortunately, I lost my procrastinating ways as I entered grad school so a lot of work had been done and I have colleagues willing to proof my work and come up along me. 3 weeks left of this semester and I keep thinking and GOD is showing He will provide a way through. My teachers and school are willing to work with me and I could not be more thankful. Daniel Morse is right beside me and all the lemons are sweet lemon cream pie. You would think this would be stressful, yet I feel assured, equipped by grace, humility, and strengthened knowing GOD's promises are truths. Friends are like waves that do not cease, all around me, calm when I pass out, smiling when I come to, and praying me through. I'm so thankful! I'm so in love with all of you and the body of Christ. I look forward to returning to myself and more and celebrating the victory of health.
|
Today was rough but the night was better. The fatigue, confusion, losing consciousness, and such is just yuck. This evening I had a few visits and watched a movie for the first time which was like a vacation. I missed my mini vacation home to see family and Jimmy Buffett though I'm affirmed in my family here. Love to love you guys and thank you for the support.
|
Jeremiah 29:11
For I know the plans I have for you, declares the LORD, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope. Another doctor appointment down and I did not lose consciousness at all yesterday! Think I am ready for visitors again! |
Quick update: Yesterday I went to 3 specialist and found out why I keep passing out and having airway difficulty (vocal cord dysplasia). My larynx is spasming and while the vocal cords are supposed to be opening they are closing and I am not getting air. They think there is a genetic component to the lactic acidosis but are still running tests and trying different medications. My lungs are good which is a huge blessing!
|
David, Timothy, and Paul are on my mind this morning as GOD reminds me suffering is temporary and His love is so fulfilling. April R. Phillips told me I had "church troops". From brothers that went before me with examples of how to be patient and the reward in love, to an army before me now calling out to GOD while being my hands and feet. I am happy and hope you find the joy in your salvation today!
|
Taking a few minutes to catch up while I have the energy and remembering miracles are to be celebrated. Looking forward to the party we will have when I am restored! I saw Billy Graham give an invintational and people ran to receive Jesus. With the love I have in the friendships and support from His body, how could you not run? "GOD is at work to reveal who He is", Dr. Swanson.
|
Friends I am home and finally got good rest last night. What a difference a few hours of sleep makes! Despite how rough the morning has been with breathing difficulties, we know we made the best decision to come home as the asthma is less triggered and I am able to treat my symptoms immediately not awaiting a team. There will be doctor appointments this week and following and GOD has given me indication I will be able to finish this semester. My vocal cord dysplasia continues to spasm causing coughing attacks so speaking is not something I am able to do right now without great concentration and difficulty and you all know I love to fellowship! There are not words to speak to the love I have been shown except to say it is agape. I will update when I can. Love to love you.
|
They have given me a 50/50 chance on going home and staying home. My pulmonologist feels staying here is best but can give me all the "expensive medications and therapies" to do at home, the hospitalist said she has nothing more to offer right now and being away from the environmental triggers in the hospital may be best. So, consulting GOD. I will need support making it to appointments and picking up medications but feel I will have more stamina away from here. Staying hospitalized means less sleep, but help in crisis. We are going home and I'm not scared. Best case is best case and I like it.
|
Miraculous news, the lactic acidosis is down, still elevated but not critical meaning my other organs should respond especially my lungs and start working better. Did y'all pray or something?
|
Romans 5:3-5 NIV
Not only so, but we also glory in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; [4] perseverance, character; and character, hope. [5] And hope does not put us to shame, because God's love has been poured out into our hearts through the Holy Spirit, who has been given to us. My relationships are all changed because I have the Trinity. What a promise and love we have in them. Day 5 continues, let's attack this hospital stay GOD. |
Have a brief moment of strength and I have to say thank you. You are my family and you have come out swinging against all fears, sending intercessions, claiming my healing in His name, visiting and praying with me when all I can do is struggle to breathe and not talk at times, and praying and sending me encouragement. There are not words for what the body does when it comes together for a part. I cannot help but rejoice in suffering because of your faithfulness, your love, your reflection of Christ during this time. My heart is full and I have a lot of test verifying nothing is wrong with it because of all the stitches each one of you has sewn into me. Thank you!
|
